The Blonde Book Lover: Ember by Rachel van Dyken

I am a Killer. A Rapist. A Monster.
I know only pain and survival.
That is until the Cappo's sister walked into my life.
And changed everything.

She's a light who makes my darkness darker, her smile makes my heart turn to ice, and I can't escape the fear her seductive looks instill--knowing it's only a matter of time before I fail--again, and take her for myself.
This is the story of my redemption.
But it's not pretty...I died, and now I'm alive, but not living, breathing but not surviving. I am Phoenix De Lange, son to a murdered mob boss, estranged brother, horrible friend, monster in the making, newest leader to one of the most powerful families in the Cosa Nostra.
And I will have my vengeance.
Or die trying.
I am Phoenix De Lange.
Death is all I know.
Until she offers me a piece of life--I can't resist taking

I was very excited to read Phoenix story. I have a thing for broken men I guess. I really believe Phoenix is worthy of love. He just needed someone to see him for who he really is, to mend his broken pieces back together, to fight for him and most of all to make him want to live again. And I thing Bianka, sister of the capo, also called Bee, is the perfect woman for the Job.

I’m finally starting to understand the family tree, and how the families work but it’s still confusing at times.

Review

What is this book about.

This book continues where elicit and bang bang ended. It now focuses on Phoenix and Bee. Phoenix now is the head of the nicolasi family and all the secrets Luca knew are now passed on to him. Phoenix believes he isn’t worthy of anything and in bee’s eyes he’s worth everything. Bee is the sister the capo. She had a rough live and her father was horrible to her. Phoenix saved and protected her from her father. We don’t get to know much about her past, which is a shame, I would like to find out more. Anyhow, even though she had a rough childhood she is still a funny, energetic, smart, sassy person. I think she is one of my favorites in this series. She and Chase are seriously the funny ones. Bee’s relentless in her pursuit after phoenix, she pushes his buttons like no other, teases him, forces him to eat, tricks him and she sees the good in him when nobody does, but she’s also very insecure. Phoenix on the other hand is trying very hard to push her away, to keep her from his cursed self but even he has his limits.

What do I love about this book.

I Just love phoenix. I really feel for him and I really believe he is much more than he thinks he is. I’m happy to see he found love and forgiveness is in his life. I think that the person he was, was created out of the horrible circumstances he grew up in. I really loved there story and I hope to see more of them in Elude. I’m curious about Sergio and Andi’s story, because andi seems like an very interesting person. Oh Andi is from a Russian mob family, she worked for Luca.

This story changed, it’s really maturing. It still has the bad ass mafia business going on but you can tell that the characters aged and things are getting more serious.

Quotes from the book:

But want didn’t really belong in my vocabulary anymore – Phoenix

Who died and made you my grandpa – Bee

"Didn’t I tell you to make friends?" " Found a squirrel in the parking lot. Does that count?" "That depends. Did it talk to you? Offer you his nuts?" - Bee and Phoenix

"This is your Everest. We all have them. We all struggle.?But that doesn’t make you any less intelligent. It makes you different. Don’t let the thing that terrifies you overcome you so much that you can’t even take a bite. So we start slow. We start at the beginning. And eventually, you’ll be able to eat the whole plate, or in your case, finish every problem. You helped me with lasagna, I’ll help you with this". “because I fed you? “ No, Because you where the only one who even recognized I was hungry” - Bee and Phoenix

“Bee he growled. “if you aren’t here in five seconds I’m going to –“ “Spank me? Mud wrestle until I say uncle?” - Bee and Phoenix

"The prince doesn’t turn into a prince, and the beast doesn’t turn back human, Bee. That’s not how life really works". “I don’t mind frogs, beast are kind of scary… but can be tamed too” “Is that your way of saying you can tame me?” Aw you need a safe word. It can be bird you know, because of your name and all” - Bee and Phoenix

It broke my heart, absolutely shattered every part of me, that the only time I’d seen him truly at peace was in the moment when he was asking for his own death

"I believe in you. I just.. I want you to know that despite everything… I believe in you. That’s all" - Bee

“Taking advantage of you with my eyes .What does it look like I’m doing?” - Bee

First time phoenix and bee spoke.